Is God trying to kill me?

God has not brought you out into the desert to kill you.  

As I meditate on what God is doing in our lives, my family and I, and where we find ourselves, this is what resonates loudly in my spirit.

Do you find yourself in the desert today?  Are you wondering where God is leading you? Are you asking God where the open door is?

I understand. It was Exodus 16:3 where the Israelites suddenly realized that there was no food in the desert, and they began to complain to Moses, "If only we had died in Egypt! There we sat around pots of meat!"

Hmph. Doesn't sound very likely to me, that a bunch of oppressed slaves who were told at one point to make bricks without straw would be likely to have pots of meat that they have the free time to "sit around".   How easy it is to glamorize the past.  How easily our hearts deceive us. 

I know that as our family has been making some difficult decisions in our lives, I have heard the Lord reminding me at times, do not look back at Egypt, do not do as Lot's wife did and look back.  Yet when ahead all seems darkness, the past does take on a favorable hue.

But know that it is all a test.  The Israelites were tested in the desert, and they were found wanting.  They ended up wandering around for 40 years, before their children were eventually allowed into the Promised Land. Of the Israelites that complained here in the desert when there was no food, however, only two would ever see the Promised Land:  Joshua and Caleb.  The rest perished. 

So, friend, if you are wavering in the desert today, wondering where God is leading you, remember it's all a test.  Hold fast to the promises of God.  Whatever God has shown you, whatever you have felt like He was showing you or speaking to you in the past, it is still true until the moment it is fulfilled. Hold on to that.  Pray that.  Speak it over your life. God has not brought you there to kill you, just as He did not bring the Israelites out of Egypt to kill them. 

And know that you are not alone.